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Calling all unemployed losers

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Does it ever get any better? This is the question I’ve been asking myself for months. I’ve been out of work for almost 7 months, and I don’t see any end in sight. I’ve been struggling with the feeling of worthlessness. This is how I feel at times – completely worthless. I don’t know what to do with myself on a day-to-day basis. I try to keep busy and find new things to do if I get bored, but it’s getting harder to find inspiration. I’m overly stressed and tired.

The idea of being tired makes me laugh. After all, why should I be tired? I don’t have a job. How can one be tired when one doesn’t have a job to make one tired? But I am tired. All I think about every day is where is the money going to come from to pay the bills, or buy the groceries. That’s what’s making me tired, the mental stress of all that worrying is exhausting. I can see the effects on my face every time I look in the mirror. I look haggard, and that is definitely not a good thing.

It’s a sad day when you realize that you’re just not qualified to do anything. That is, you’re over-qualified or under-qualified, either way you’re not qualified to work anywhere. How can that be? How can someone be in the workforce for eighteen years, and not be able to find a job. Eighteen years of experience and education, and no one will hire you. It just doesn’t seem right somehow. The world is not a fair place, but it’s not as if I am asking for handouts. I want to work.  It shouldn’t be this hard.

Maybe I’m just feeling sorry for myself. Maybe I’m feeling like this because I’m sick with the flu and drunk on NyQuil. Maybe I’m letting the death of the two most genuine characters on Downton Abbey get to me (Damn you, Downton! Stop killing off my favorite characters!). Whatever the reason, I hope there is an end to this. I need this pity party to end, and maybe have an actual party with people. BYOB of course, I won’t be able to afford supplies.

Author: Dolores

I'm a ninja - one that bumps into things, and curses loudly.

4 thoughts on “Calling all unemployed losers

  1. You can make it! These are very tough times. I get down often (our household has been going through it for a long time, as well). Then I think about my Grandparents during the Great Depression, and how they pretty much just had to put up with life sucking for a good decade or so, and I think of how awesome their lives were after that, and it gives me hope for the future. That maybe we can have hope, too. That the hardship will end some time.
    I really hope that things get better for you! Hang in there. You can do it!

  2. Random stranger from the blogosphere here — Just wanted to say that I’ve been there! Hang in there! It will get better!

  3. Hey, another random stranger from the internets here. I’ve recently come out of an eight month unemployment and I stumbled across your blog. I read your post and felt my heart strings tug because those feelings of worthlessness are really familiar. But your unemployment doesn’t define you, and there’s nothing to feel guilty about in feeling tired all the time. Keep going, rest if you need to and remember to take time for yourself in between job searching.

    I hope things get better for you soon, I really do!

    • Thank you, Sarah. It’s good to know I’m not alone out there. The good news is I found a job, and I fill out the paperwork next week. Things are definitely looking up. Thanks, again. It’s a comfort that there are good people out there like you who understand.

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